Another year has gone past. One third of my life is already over;
and i must say i have lived it happily.
Now at this moment when i sit back and think about how i have
lived, i have lived without the need to please anyone. I have made my own
mistakes and corrected many of them. Some mistakes are left to be mistakes;
there is hardly anything that you can do about.
I have made my folks proud, at the same time i have let them down
too. I have hardly been the elder brother my sibling may have wanted, but i am
trying. I have had my ups and down, i have had my fights and i have truly
lived.
While i was busy alienating people for most of my life so far,
surprising when i look back, i have also made a few friends for the life time. My
social skills are always on the lower side, i suck at interactions, but i am
glad i have made a few friends, a few like family in this short while...
One third of my life is over. Do i have regrets? Yes. Will i be
able to forgive me when i die? Obviously. Would something be different if i had
a change, not many, not much.
There is something i take pride in being me and that is letting
know people that they matter. I can be really cold and shrug you out of my life
if you don’t matter to me. But if at all i see anyone as a part of my life, my
world, i have let them know it, and they know it.
It has always been hard for me to keep up with all the people i
know, especially when there exist a lot of people who have found time to be
judgmental on my sins, rather faults, or short comings, i have nothing to tell
them, but for the ones who stood by, thank you. You mean the world to me.
I have let people down, i have hurt people, i have picked fights
and i have walked out of many. I have broken hearts, broken hopes and gifted
tears to many, but i believe that i am making up to it now.
I have only lived one third of my life, i still have the two third
remain for the wrongs to be made rights, and for peace to be found.
I am glad to have learned all the lessons in life so far, and
looking forward to learn more, I’d however say,Learning not to be emotional while making decisions, and learning
how not to be dependent on anyone for my emotional stability are the best
learning i have had so far.
To the ones who had to lie and betray, and pretend, i have nothing against you, and i may not forgive what you did to me. but i will conveniently forget your existence, that you live on the same earth i do, and i hope, i hope we may never cross paths, for it would be difficult for you to stand my sight.
To the ones who left me, thank you for the memories, those are worth holding on to. tomorrow when i have answer, if some one asks, what were the best days of my life, i might even mention you for the memories are sweeter
To the ones who stayed through the ups and downs, thank you. You always found time to pick my calls, listen to me crib, complain, worry and even cry, i do not know what would i do without you. i do not know how my life would have turned around without you providing that shoulder of comfort. Trust me, there were days when i had lost the need to live, when i questioned my own existence even. Thank you for not being let down by me. Thank you for being there when i was down, low and out. Thank you for installing in me the desire to live and the faith to dream.
To all the awesome people in my life, to the ones who make wish to wake up everyday and time to catch up, to have all the fun, Cheers. I hope i will be able to return all the love and affection and care you people shower up on me, i hope i will be able to be there when you need me.
Thank you.
Today, i am 25 Years Young !
To the ones who had to lie and betray, and pretend, i have nothing against you, and i may not forgive what you did to me. but i will conveniently forget your existence, that you live on the same earth i do, and i hope, i hope we may never cross paths, for it would be difficult for you to stand my sight.
To the ones who left me, thank you for the memories, those are worth holding on to. tomorrow when i have answer, if some one asks, what were the best days of my life, i might even mention you for the memories are sweeter
To the ones who stayed through the ups and downs, thank you. You always found time to pick my calls, listen to me crib, complain, worry and even cry, i do not know what would i do without you. i do not know how my life would have turned around without you providing that shoulder of comfort. Trust me, there were days when i had lost the need to live, when i questioned my own existence even. Thank you for not being let down by me. Thank you for being there when i was down, low and out. Thank you for installing in me the desire to live and the faith to dream.
To all the awesome people in my life, to the ones who make wish to wake up everyday and time to catch up, to have all the fun, Cheers. I hope i will be able to return all the love and affection and care you people shower up on me, i hope i will be able to be there when you need me.
Thank you.
Today, i am 25 Years Young !