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A Snapshot of Moment

A Tag After An Year,Also !

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

I am almost qualified for a job.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Taking some real hard decisions, and its consequences

3. Right now, at this moment, what to you want most?

Family

4. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Health, Money, Love, Fame, Happiness.

5. What word best describes the way you have spent the last month of your life?

Sleep

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

The worries that trouble my mind

7. In one sentence, who are you?

I am the one blessed to touch hearts with words and break hearts with acts

8. What do you want to be known for?

Honesty

9. If you have to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

Depends on to which side.

10. In one year from today, how would you think your life would be different?

A Job, A Vehicle, and Proper Internet. Also Drinks


11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Everybody around me

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Heart to Heart connection, Openness, Understandability

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

Nothing.


14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

Freedom, Independence, Money

15. What stands between you and what you want?

Money.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

I walk, alone, through the crowded roads, I sit near the beach side, and listen to the voices in my head.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

Never. Its never too short.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Health.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

Nothing, May be questioning the way I do things.

20. What's something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

Judge from their prespective.

21. What's a common misconception people have about you?

That I am 16 and arrogant.

22. What's something no one can take away from you?

The child in me.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Mobile.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

Childhood

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

A lot of them.


26. What's the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

Control my Anger.

27. If not now, then when?

Never.

28. What have you done, that you are truly proud of?

Being myself. Accepting my mistakes and correcting them always. Giving people what I have the most, my time, when they need it the most.

29. What's something new that you recently learned about yourself?

A lot of things. I have been going through the transformation stage for some time.

30. What do you want to remember forever?

The People in my life.

31. What could society do without?

The nose that keeps coming to everyone’s issues.

32. What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of?

A Life.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Expectations hurt a lot. Do not ever expect, also, be yourself and let others be too.

34. What's something you said you'd never do, but have since done?

Giving people more than 3 chances for the same mistake they do with my life.

35. What's something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

Money. I thought love was much important than money, but well, money can buy almost everything.

36. What didn't last forever, but still worth your while?

My Girl.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Dude, get out the science group. Its not the thing for you. Learn what you like, language.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

Can I have a cup of coffee please !

39. When it's all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?

No.


40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

How long? And why did I do this.
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Hiding My Tears From You

The decisions were already made. There was nothing that we could change. It was just our hearts, unwilling to accept things in the new way. We have cried enough too. One of us has to step up to the reality and make it a smooth walk for us, for both of us.

It wasn’t easy, hiding my tears from you; it wasn’t easy; not showing you what is in me. You would read everything in my eyes, even my silence; it wasn’t easy pretending to be fine. That second when you came close, i knew i had to do this. I knew i had to break my heart, and let you not know, let you not see even a sign of what i am going through. I faked a smile for once. I faked anger on you for once, i faked hatred for once. And you walked away. I stood there, watching you walk to infinity.

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Making Life's Calls

I probably won’t have an explanation for the calls i am going to make in couple of days; i probably might regret it sometime later. But then, there are no forever rights and wrongs. The calls that i have to make are tough ones. It includes more than me, more than my life. It includes people. A handful of them. Making the calls even toughest to make. But i have to it, i do not have an explanation now, i won’t ever have also. All I know is that i am doing what feels right for me at this moment. All I am doing is what my heart tells to do me. I have reached a stage where my decisions are well thought. I have been taking responsibilities of what i say, and what i do, and i will not stop from doing that. But the calls am going to make now aren’t well thought, they aren’t the products of my thinking brain; neither are they the products of my heart alone.

Emotions come into picture. Last three years, i have been trying to learn to keep my emotions under control and check, and i have been quite successful in that. I have control all the emotions running through my mind these days, whether it be the positive emotions or the negative emotions. Thanks to a number of people who taught me such valuable lessons. Trust me, now, i am more than happy that you people left, create a void in my life, which made me this strong enough, to live through, not that i do not miss you people, but i have gotten over you all, and i still cherish the font memories of all the good times we have had together, friends, best friends and ex-girlfriends. Today, i am going back to that stage which i purposefully got over, where emotions play a vital role in my decisions, but i am confident enough that this time i am dependent only on myself, and quite sure that, i can still hold back the emotions from outpouring and over powering the decisions i make.

I think it’s time i break hold of a lot of attachments now, it’s time i move you and start making a stand for my own, a position for my own, not that every one doesn’t do it. But in order to do these, i am to make the calls which are going to be hurting, paining, and which would leave a cut which would bleed forever. I may hurt people, people who are close, who are the reason why i exist now, people who made me, me, people who taught me things, people who gave my life the direction. Its time, i take the road on my own. Whatever is to come, let it come! All i know is, right now, i am doing what i feel is right. I do not have justifications, and i wouldn’t mind apologizing once when i know i have been making the wrong calls.
Let Time Tell.
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Not A Drop Of Tear

There was no adrinaline rush. No fire was lit in him. He wasnt even feeling anything. Numb he was. Burning inside his mind was the thoughts of all bygone days. Where days were short and nights were lenghty.. When they had loved the dark shades.. He didnt close his eyes the last time they kissed eachother. His hands werent crossed behind her. He didnt try to bring the comforting darkness back.

She wasnt standing on his feet, her hands werent carassing his lenghty hair. She wasnt flying above the clouds. Her feet was in the ground. She wasnt swept off by the intense emotions. She looked deep into his eyes, in a state of trance. Plain it was. There wasnt that shine in his eyes. The silence felt threatening. It didnt speak anything unlike rest of the days.

She pushed him off.. His hands slowly unclutched from hers.. The comfort they had while being together was far gone. They couldnt stand the sight of each other. Not a drop of tear fell from their eyes.

Title Credits : @SunSandRain
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Broken

Your Thoughts,
Tearing Apart My Dreams,
Beyond Repair.
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Bida..


Here is a translation of one of my previous attempts on a poem, titled Letting Her Go, written my junior at college, Nikita

aansoon jo uski baraste rahe,
dheeme dheeme, andheron mein who taraste rahe,
daard uska sirf use dikha,
jo uski muhabat mein fana hua.

woh hasti thi,woh gati thi,
khil khilati thi woh roshiniyon mein,
jhoote un muskanon ke peeche,
chupi hui thi woh andheron mein.

kisi ko na dhikha uska daard,
keh te rahe khushiyon ki woh toli hai,
sun ke duniya walon ki woh tarife,
jeeti rahi woh mar mar ke.

raaton ke andheron mein naqaab jo usne utaraa,
deewana uska khada sirf dekh ta hi raha gaya,
basa liya use apni bahoon mein istaraha,
ki khamoshiyon mein bhi unho ne 
ek dusre ko sun liya.

bahon ke kaid se jo woh nikli,
fasala itna badh gaya,
ki khamoshiyan bhi cheekhne lagi,
jana tha jo usko hamesha hamesha ke liye

kaandhe par sar rakh kar,
jo woh roti rahi,
vida kar diya usko,
jo thi sirf meri.

shaadi ke jode mein jo woh thi khadi,
dikhi woh mujhe bheegi palkon se,
badhayiyan di usko tute hue dil se,
dhikha uska bhi daard un akiyan mein.

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