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Why Passive ??

Yeah i know and i remember an article is to be posted on sexual education.. been trying to write that article,infact been trying to complete that article.. just managed to write some two three lines so far.. been busy with life's issue..been busy with the works of college magazine.. been back to my obnoxious mindset, been abnormal these days.. just cant figure out what is happening..

the mood swing has been here with me for long now..been down with general health too and the official issues have been eating up my head.. the correction in date of birth has to be done..and its procedures are..oh..man! better not explain...been trying to get all the necessary documents..and now i have to go to kottayam.. and another trouble also has entered my life.. attendence shortage at college...the mood swing seem to take a lot from me.my mood to sit and study is spoiled now..

and the relationship with my girl friend has always been best and now its better..just feel good to be with her over the phone.. and now the kottayam tripo is showing me an oppertunity to go to her place and have a walk with her hands in hands... this month and the 2nd half of the previous has taken a hell lot of time out of me. i had been kept busy doing nothing.. and my desire to write something new was and still is on the high.. but i am failing to figure out new topics... i have lost my mind somewhere in the midst. i think academics is on my head now.. feel as if the fear is now building.. was doing better last year and this year, academics also was not that much of good fo me.. the first year results are going to be out in the near future and its tension also is there..

and another bad memory has started to haunt me once again.. the memories of the lost past started hauting again.. the 12th results of mine was the worse one could ever have.. towering the 90s in 10th and then fall to th 60s in 12th is a nightmare.. no one to blame though.. that memories still hauting..but the first year at college was better.. my concentration in academics was on the peak.. and this year.. i feel as if i am not working hard.. just cant figure out whats going wrong and wheres going wrong...

hoping for a typical mood swing now.. hoping forward to visit my girl and and return and then to start working hard on academicss.. and my venture to keep this blog rolling will always be there... after all this gives me an identity on the internet.. the feedbacks for the blog has been good soo far.. thanks to rugma.. she has been a regular visitor and a commentator.. but still i lack quality feed backs and blog traffic, may be because the blog is still a normal one.. may me i am not posting something different and unusual..

why passive? is the question that i have been asking myself for long.. why am i ending up with no answers? ahh.. i still dont have any answer !!

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..Rugma.. said...

hey...
Wats wid u. yaar..?v hav 2 take care of our mind n mood...coz v hav a long way 2 go...n i hav kind of succeeded in contrlng it...u can do it as wel...
Btwn,i layk ur blog layout..it luks kool...
N one mor thng,try 2 generalize ur blog posts..i mean,nt 2 leav ur personal xperience as such bt try 2 rayt sumthng mor relatd 2 general stuffs...dis can help u strengthen ur blog...atleast,dats wat am tryin 2 do...

Shravan RN said...

right rugma.. i know i have lost the control of my mind n mood. trying hard to recover from this passive mind set..anyways happy that you liked the layout. and yead, on generalizing the blog, i've been thinking of that.but topic and subjects are an issue.will figure them out soon.. anyways thanks rugma!

sarah said...

I recently came across your blog and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.
Sarah
http://www.thetreadmillguide.com

Shravan RN said...

thanks for the comment sarah, and thanks for visiting. hope to see u again with more comments

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